The right word

Today is as good as any, I think to myself.
Pondering
Pondering
Pondering

Is that even the right word.
I checked.
It is.

When will I
Will I
Will I
Will I

I want it so much.

Ponder
Ponder
Ponder

That's the right word.
It is.
It is.
The rest,

Is

Not