00.05

So early

I'm hopeful 

The universe stays silent

As it should.

A big clump of muteness and apathy.

The voices in my head

Say I'm alone

I do feel lonely

Maybe I am...all alone

It would make sense

A follows B through C and D

Like one plus one will always be two

There's so little I can do.

It's 00.11

That was supposed to mean something 

In some other life maybe 

One or two universes away

I take my pills and silently await

The return of me

I know he'll never come back

From wherever he is

I wait still.

He went

Never came back

Not fully

Not really

I wonder if all the other pieces still breathe

Or see the light of day

The voices in my head 

Say they don't 

What's dead is gone

Why am I still here then

Because we want you here, they say

But I fight them

Oh, how I fight them

My prescription is almost over

I should refill it

I keep delaying 

I hear them creeping closer

Dark heavy steps in the night

A threat of an itch in the day

Something that isn't quite there

But it is there.

How can you describe something that isn't here?

You see it

Feel it

Smell it

Taste it

Hear it

But it doesn't exist.

Reminds of something I had a while back

Something I could see

Even feel

Sometimes smell

The sweetest taste

The best laughter.

Lost in the wind to time and memory.

I guess...

I guess some things are real

Even if they don't exist, if that makes sense.

Turning on the tv reminds me of this world I'm supposed to be a part of

I turn it back off

I'm alone

It's best like this.